First dream in Midland, SD. It was horrible; I remember my kids, my ex, and my mother. I remember telling someone they only get one call today, literally. I can’t remember if that was real or not to be honest. I struggle with letting some things go. Usually if I dream of my ex, it means I haven’t really let something go. That is the only thing about the dream I remember with my ex….I remember standing in front of him and screaming, “You never let anything go. And the more you don’t let go the stronger I can feel you.” Whatever the hell that means. All I know is I woke up thing morning way too damn early, feeling like I got hit by a Mack Truck, my neck is killing me it’s so sore, and I’m starving. I don’t care anymore. I’m heading to that huge kitchen and doing what I want in it. It’s time to make an impact; I’m going to cook some food, eat, clean and probably all before 7am.
This dream had way more in it, but I would prefer not to give all details, just the fullest part I remember. This happens from time to time, but I journal as well. And, lately, I don’t even have to journal; I can recall that dream or this dream when the moment comes up that reminds me of something in that dream. Then I remember it in full detail, feeling, colors, smell, taste, and sounds. It’s wild. Someone once said to me, “You have a good memory of your dreams.” I thought this was interesting, because I have heard other say, “I can’t believe you can remember” or “I can never dream in detail like you”, but not specifically the word memory has ever been spoken to me. What jarred me a little about this is, I don’t see dreams as memories until I dream of a past moment specifically, but I realized for myself that maybe what we process in our brain at night, comes from past memories that were triggered by an event or statement that happened that day before the dream. Then, a whole other level of dreams is where I see something and a couple days later it happens in a small way. Did I just create a memory in my head before the actual “memory” happened in real life?
Ok, that is way too deep before coffee. I will be back and hopefully I sleep better tonight and dream better dreams tonight.
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